About Me

Once upon a time I believed, like most people, that fat was a terrible thing to be. I thought all of my woes would disappear if I got skinny. I dieted myself down almost one hundred pounds, primarily through restricting my food intake. I kept up with my new “lifestyle change,” but the weight stopped coming off, and then started coming back on.

It was around this time that the fitness bug bit me, and I started walking. A lot. I started to get fitter. My weight kept getting higher, but I felt amazing. I decided to train for and walk a half marathon, and then another, and another. Me, an athlete! I even became a trainer and coach for a half marathon fundraising program. All while fat.

My marathon medals. Photo by Annette Lein, Democrat and Chronicle.

 

I got injured, as happens, and went to see a personal trainer on the advice of my physical therapist. The personal trainer fat-shamed me. My accomplishments and experiences didn’t matter to her; she couldn’t see past my fat to hear my words. That day was the beginning of a momentous shift in my thinking and my attitude. That was the day that I started Big Fit Deal. Fitness and health aren’t just for thin people – they’re for everybody and every body, including me. This message, coupled with fat and body positivity, have become my passion.

Photo by ButtonWood Photography.

According to the BMI scale, I’m morbidly obese. According to my primary care physician, I’m one of her healthiest patients. According to my pants, I’m plus-sized. According to the medals hanging on my wall, I’m an endurance athlete. I am all of these things.

  • Linda Berens

    Wake up people! This lovely girl has everything going for her. One of the most caring and nurturing individuals ever and some take one look and that defines her? I have to believe we are evolving beyond the superficial “first impression” into a time that wants good health and strength for loving each other!

  • Michelle

    I love “according to the medals hanging on my wall…”!! You’re brilliant and beautiful and I wish more people would change from a focus on skinny to a focus on healthy! The two do not equate!! Until I hit my 30s I was underweight – sometimes severely – had no energy, drive, was sick ALL the time! Finding and being the weight you are meant to be is what we should all strive for! You go girl!!

  • I love this. It’s really connected with me. I too am on a journey but I’m STUCK in the 260’s I have been since about 7 months ago. I was on a roll, dropping about 65-70 lbs and now this, in the 260’s. Maybe my body is just meant to be here? Why can’t I just eat healthy and stop worrying about what the F’ing scale says and BE HEALTHY? Thank you!! This was eye opening!

    • BFD

      Hi, Beverly! I’m glad you found BFD. I still struggle all the time with letting go. Whenever I am made aware of my weight (I haven’t owned a scale in 6 years), I become obsessed with that number and it affects my mood so negatively. I try to consciously let that go and focus on all of the amazing things my body is capable of. Maybe our bodies are meant to be here – the trick is, making our minds be okay with that!

      I hope you’ll comment frequently. Welcome!

      • You know I will and I’m currently writing a blog centered around you and the great idea you’ve sparked 🙂

        • BFD

          Well, that’s super flattering! Thanks, Beverly!